8th Night of Hanukkah
For the first time in many years, my expectations for an event has been exceeded. As I outlined in another post, I despise this time of the year.
The holidays are a time for people to visit their pasts, go back to where they once were. My past is fraught with weakness and regret. I wish to never revisit that place.
As a result, I am left all alone for many months at a time. Left to stew in hatred and loneliness. This in turn makes me a more bitter individual.
But that was not the tale these last 8 nights. With the help of new and old friends, I have found light that last for all 8 nights. and not once during this time period did the darkness creep back in.
It has been many years indeed since I have felt included during the holidays. i time where for a very long time, I have felt nothing but loneliness and despair. But to feel included this year. Now that was exceptional.
I cannot adequately put into words, how thankful I am for the friends that took time out of their week to spend it with me. This Hanukkah has been one of the best I have had in years. Thank you to all who had a part to play in it.