Returning to College
These last few years have been a wild ride. In and out of multiple jobs. Finally realizing that working retail is the greatest cancer in the job world. Getting a book published. Creating this blog also happened.
This summer I began taking online course again to make up or a more than 2 year lapse in my education. Still one class is an insignificant part of my life and does not warrant an explanation. What does however matter is that I will be attending school full time this fall.
I am trying to go into this renewed experience with optimism. The pain of the last three years that I had spent at college are now behind me. The old weak me that allowed himself to be Cyber bullied into the ground and allowed pathetic excuse for human beings to trick him into following their rules and advice is long dead. He has been replaced by the jaded cynic you all know today.
Still this new me is ready to return to the classroom. I am now mature enough that the social drama of a failing Greek System is the least of my concerns. While student organizations will still be on my mind, the piece of paper that will allow me to gather other pieces of paper will be foremost as my goal.
Instead, my greatest fear now is whether college is worth it. The way the debt (both mine and general student) has increased over the years, I would need to be making roughly $90,000 a year starting out to make it out ahead. Will it be worth it after all the pain and misery I experienced in my younger years combined with an entire decade of my life that has been largely wasted at tasks far beneath me along side a love life that could be the punchline of a comedy skit?
My fear is not at all. My greatest fear of all is that I will continue to live a squandered life because we live in a society ruled by people that go out of their way to ensure people like me with new ideas fail.